Meeting my Higher Self

​The following experience occurred during my 21 days in Sedona, Arizona, September 2007.

Just as Shirley Maclaine's aptly titled book, Out on a Limb, speaks of other worldly experience, the incident which I am about to relate in this post is a rather singular event in my life and I recommend an open mind when reading this very personal account. It may be helpful, for the purpose of context, to read my first post, "Open Channel", also in this Experienced section of my website, before continuing to the text below. 

Many examples of synchronicity  led me to a Reiki session in the land of the Red Rocks. My only expectation, having had my first Reiki treatment a few weeks before, was to experience a sensation of calm and balance after the treatment. Although the practitioner spoke and was more hands on (head and neck massage) than during my first experience, I spent the usual few minutes alone at the end of the hour getting my bearings and slowly rising into a sitting position on the massage table. As I looked into the mirrored wall in front of me, I saw my "Self" for the first time in this life.

A few days before, Dr. Peebles (channeled by Summer Bacon) had informed me that when I would finally see my true reflection I would be amazed at what I saw. At the time, I thought he meant when I crossed over at the end of my human existence. To say that I was stunned by what the mirror showed me would be a great understatement.

First, I saw how beautiful I was. Not beauty in the traditional aesthetic sense of the term, but in the ethereal way that my image was surrounded by pure light. My body literally radiated Love and I was completely sidelined by how amazing seeing my Higher Self made me feel. I then jumped down from the table and looked around at the rooms in the house through "new" eyes. Although I was conscious enough to interact minimally with the practitioner (making my payment for the Reiki session and thanking him), it was  all very secondary to the feeling of pure Bliss and enjoyment of everything around me. 

When I stepped outside I was overwhelmed by the intense color and shimmering light emitted by a landscaped cascading fountain on the side of the hill. As I walked along the sidewalk, I passed a complete stranger for whom I felt incredible brotherly love and intense compassion. The Joy was boundless as I walked to the shopping mall where I waited for a taxi. A lady from New York observed me walking towards her and she gave me a huge smile as I approached. She asked if she could simply stand beside me. Later, I understood that she could see my aura radiating from a distance. For the next few days, this state of awareness stayed with me in fluctuating degrees. I was so at peace, that a woman from the Philippines, who ended up sitting beside me on a return flight via Chicago, told me that she hoped to do so after she had observed my calm "presence" while seated in the airport terminal.

The illusion of Ego hides our true nature. Although I was not able to remain connected to this Higher Self, it is reassuring to know that it is always present.